i'm eating tao hu hua. Thought it'd be sweet and nice but something's wrong with it. It tastes bitter. Or maybe it's because i've jz chewed away a bunch of really sweet seedless blackcurrant.

My mum is forcing me to eat everyday. Yeah forcing is the exact word to use. i'm forced to eat and drink when i'm not hungry or thirsty. For my own good i know. She said i've got even more skinny in the holiday staying at home. Hah i too want to put on some weight. In a week's time i'll be having roti telur, Mc Chicken, Ayamas Set D, nasi lemak, teh ais and light coke as lunches and dinners. The menu will never change, i tell you. Eat those food everyday of every week. So i guess i'd better eat everything my mum wants me to eat now.

i've been living like a queen these two months. Not really with the dazzling magic power of ruling of Queen of Narnia; but i live in such comfort and ease and peace...everything nice you can find in the fairy tales. i wonder how am i going to suit myself into the hostel life again? i feel like this queenish life seems going to stretch on forever...or more accurately, i want to live this queenish life forever. Ahaha impossible.

Bye bye to my beloved mummy and papa and home sweet home. Bye bye to my darlings. Bye bye to my dear piano. i'm going back to school! Then i'll shout "Hey!" and "Wei!" to you to all those faces i've known in Shah Alam. i wonder whether we will embrace each other. How nice those western people are, when you watch the tv or movies you'll see them naturally hug and kiss each other when they meet. And i'll happily enjoy my student life with some complaints and some pain of tests and homework and exam and sometimes a bit of homesick,mummy-sick. And i'll be having fun with friends, out of control of my mum and anyone, like a wild wild horse. i'll be learning more and more knowledge i lust of or even things unexpected.

=) i'm looking forward to it. Or you can say i'm persuading myself to look forward to it? Haha it doesn't matter much, does it? Hope it won't be too painful when it's time for the queen to tear herself away from her palace.

The queen has went to the hair dresser. Got a trim. Hey i just looked into the mirror and it actually looked quite nice. i mean my hair. It's not really short. But didn't look unkempt anymore. But i was a bit sad when the hair dresser chopped of my hair...like she wanted to cut it very short. And i didn't look into the mirror after i got my hair trimmed. Hate and sad and dared not look. But i plucked up my courage to look at myself. Hmm i guess the queen's look hasn't changed much from the last time she was seen =P

And i'll keep on trying to be a good girl. i'm not a good girl. But it's the expectation from everybody. So i'll keep on trying.